40 Weeks (Sort Of)

So I found out today, September 8th, that I'm being induced at 5am tomorrow morning!! Yikes! I was totally not prepared for that and am still in a bit of shock! At my doctor appointment today I did another NST. It went fine, but did take longer than the last few ) I think because I didn't eat lunch before my appointment). My doctor was already planning to induce me by Wednesday because of my fluid level even though I could tell she had really hoped it would happen on its own. I mentioned that Luc had still moved plenty over the weekend, but not nearly as much as normal and that was enough to convince her that it was better to induce than to wait and watch at this point. I still thought she was planning to have me come in on the 9th to start with cytotec, then get induced the morning of the 10th, but the ended up just booking me in for the 9th. I left the appointment super anxious and overwhelmed. I hadn't even wrapped my head around a 9/10 induction and had still been holding out hope that I would go into labor on my own. I feel so conflicted because I really, really wanted to experience labor this time and wait until the baby was ready, but I also know if things aren't going smoothly it isn't worth going past your due date. I guess I just really believed I wouldn't have to be induced this time around. Plus, I am meeting my baby tomorrow! That is such a  crazy concept. With spontaneous labor, it just sort of happens, but with an induction you have time to think about everything, which made for a bit of a stressful/emotional evening. I cried after I put Hudson to bed (he actually cried a lot too, I think he somewhat understands what is happening). His whole world is going to change tomorrow and I hope it isn't too difficult of a transition for him. I know we have prepared him as best we can and I know he will be a great big brother, but it is still going to be really hard for him. He is still somewhat of a baby himself and I was just sad that it was our last night as our family of three with him as the baby. 

Anyways, these photos were taken on September 8th, so I am technically 39 weeks and 5 days. I weigh 167.4 so my total weight gain this pregnancy was 43.4 pounds. Over the weekend, the baby seriously got higher. On Saturday, he was right under my rib cage! He is apparently confused about which way he is supposed to be exiting! (At my appointment today Dr. Nelson said he still felt low so he has either moved back down or he is just bigger and taking up more space!) I have had a very intense urge to get everything done the past few days so naturally I have been hyperactive and not sleeping much. I've had some cramping, some contractions and feeling slightly off, but not much to report. I wasn't surprised that I was only 2cm dilated today and think some of the "symptoms" over the weekend were just wishful thinking that I would go into labor on my own before being induced. On Sunday, I bounced on my yoga ball all day with Hud, I carried him around the house while running, we danced around (I actually have been doing most of these for the past week), we went for a big walk (I pushed the stroller up the hill with groceries in it). We pretty much did all the labor inducing techniques so I went to bed optimistic that I would wake up in the middle of the night with contractions. Instead I woke up at 2am with a really bad leg cramp! :( I guess this little boy is nice and comfy inside and would rather wait until he runs out of fluid to come out on his own. I guess he doesn't have a choice now. He is being forced out tomorrow. I'm just praying that it all goes smoothly. Even though I've done this once before and it was a really great experience, I am still so nervous! I still can't believe we get to meet our baby tomorrow!