Hudson is going to be a Big Brother!

What a wonderful surprise! My cycle has been slowly getting longer since it came back in September and I honestly spent many nights in the weeks prior to this crying while reading about secondary infertility thinking my PCOS was back. I made an appointment with my doctor because I was concerned about my cycle. I even took a pregnancy test that came back negative. I in no way suspected that I was pregnant. I had an excuse for every symptom. I ate almost all of Anna's cheese platter in Tassie during our Christmas celebration (before everyone even arrived)! I even made a comment about it because I was being such a pig. I joked that I was trying to make up for the entire year of not eating any cheese and said my body was starving and now that I was finally able to eat again it was like I couldn't eat enough! Made perfect sense to everyone, but it turns out it was just my first pregnancy symptom, which I recognized with Hud before I even got a positive test. I was also really bloated in Australia. I blamed it on traveling and all the food I was eating. When we got back, I made a comment the first night I put on a bathing suit for Hudson's swim class about how out of shape and big I looked and blamed it on the addition of dairy back into my diet. I had even had a week long period in Australia. I knew it wasn't a normal period, but again I blamed that on traveling. When I took the first pregnancy test before scheduling my appointment, it came back negative, but the line to confirm the test never showed up. I have never had that happen before, but since it turned negative so quickly and because i was so sure I wasn't pregnant I accepted it as a negative test. On the morning of January 23rd, I decided I should probably take one more test before my appointment so I could confidently tell my doctor that I got a negative test without explaining that I had trusted a failed test. The second my pee hit the stick that morning a positive sign appeared! I was shocked! My mouth literally dropped open and I got all weird and giddy and kept saying out loud to myself, "No Way!" I immediately ran downstairs and started chugging water. I took another test and got the same result! My mind was racing. When and how did this happen? When was I due? How far along was I? How many no-no's have I done while I didn't know I was pregnant. During my lunch break, I ran out and bought more pregnancy tests and a t-shirt for Hudson so I could cleverly share the news with Nic that night. I took a third pregnancy test when I got home and sure enough the word pregnant appeared. I had the exact same reaction as I did with the other two tests, utter disbelief. 

I had a plan that Hudson would run to Nic when he came home from work and his t-shirt would share the news. My mom decided to stop by that night though, which made me panic because I knew I couldn't tell her before Nic came home and I didn't want to tell Nic with her there. If I didn't carry out my plan that night, there was no way I could keep this from him for another day. Just talking to him on the phone was torture. I wanted to blurt out, "I've been in shock all day because we are having another baby!!" I made up every excuse for my mom to leave and when I finally got her out of the house, I raced to get Hudson ready. We only had to wait a few minutes once we were ready, but it felt like forever. I video taped us sharing the news with Nic and he was obviously as surprised as me. It didn't go exactly as I envisioned, but I still started crying as he realized what was going on. What an exciting day! I think it will take a while to actually sink in, but we are going to become a family of 4!!!